April 11, 2013
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am I certifiably?
Ok, after my last posting, who thinks that I’m certifiably crazy? I would not blame you if you did. I may be crazy and live in my own world but they know me there! There is nothing like living with strange voices (not all the time) in your head, Ha Ha!
Comments (4)
I just finished reading all your posts and I don’t think you’re crazy at all. Both good and evil exist.
Most people wouldn’t share their story, especially if they had experiences like yours. They wouldn’t want anyone to think they are crazy. So thank you for sharing your story.
I don’t think I’ve ever blogged about my beliefs on Xanga. I usually keep them to myself. If someone asks, I just tell them that I believe in the Great Spirit and that’s it.
But I was raised Catholic. My family went to church for many years and we stopped going because while my mom does love the Catholic religion, she doesn’t agree with everything they teach. It’s the same for me, I do like the Catholic religion, but I don’t agree with everything they teach or do.
But I do believe in Jesus and his mother, Mary though. I pray to them, the Great Spirit and the Saints. I’ve prayed to Saint Kateri many times and I’ve an experience, a good one, but I’ve decided to just keep it to myself for now. However, I don’t consider myself a Catholic, or a Christian. I just believe and know the Great Spirit is there.
Also, the person who asked the question, I saw how they responded to you. I thought their response was kind of rude. If they were really interested in knowing others view of God and why they know God exists, the person would have went and looked at your entries.
@Shining_Garnet - I chose to answer that question because it is something that is very close to my heart, home and life! I did reply to that person with a condensed answer, though I don’t believe that person really cares about anything other than a Christian answer.
In a way that chapter of my life is a sad one, but it is also a happy one. When I wrote it there was a special person visiting my blog and that is another long story that did not have a happy ending.
My religious beliefs have been a long journey and are still going forward. I learned many things while spending my time on the dark-side; that have been of some help now that I’m on the other side. This whole affair is a major part of who I am! So I have written it down to give insight of whom I am to those people that I call my friends. Even though some will become afraid of me by that admission of spending time working with / for the Devil.
The best thing I learned from that experience is how to fight evil on a supernatural level. I had power that most people could never image and lost most of it in my fight to become free, again. I was given, by the Creator, the ability to retain some of that knowledge and power, though its use is very limited. I have one gift (from the Creator), that I can give part of my soul to watch over special people in my life. That gift can be a curse or a blessing for me and the person I give it to. The strange voices in my head, mind! By giving that gift I feel and hear when that person needs help. The Creator chose this as my piece (penitence) for the help He gave me in getting my soul back. I told you that I can see into another persons soul (heart) by reading their eyes, for through their eyes the soul can be see clearly. I can unnerve people when I do that, for they become an open book for me to read. I really only see if that person’s soul is used for good or evil! By that I am able to keep myself from falling back into the dark-side, so it is more of a defense mechanism to guard my own soul!
So you can see that I have become a tool for The Creator, even though I do have some free will. I also question my own sanity, at times, and fear that others will do the same, because they have.
Well, I have opened myself a little more and now I will question if our friendship is a risk? Please take this as it is meant to be an opening of my heart (soul) for you!
You haven’t scared me off, so don’t worry. Thanks for sharing your story with me though. I am very open-minded and I don’t think you are crazy. I know that people can sell their soul, or even be possessed by a demon. Just as there is good, there is evil too and some people experience it.
Your experience sounds very scary, but I am glad you made it through it and that you had someone there for you. It seems to me you’ve learned a lot from your experience and I think you are a very kind and nice person. You have always been nice to me and reading your experience hasn’t changed what I think of you.
And it does seem that person wanted a Christian answer. But not everyone who believes in the Great Spirit (God) is a Christian. Oh well, he’s the one who missed out on your posts. It was his loss.
Oh Man I missed this. If you are so am I! LOL